A Responsible Thing to do for all of us...

I'm very proud of myself for doing one thing while at home. Actually it was 2 very important things. I created my "Last Will & Testament" and a "Power of Attorney". I didn't have to drive to see a very expensive lawyer, instead I got it done all online. I also saved quite a bit of money and it really did have to be done. I had literally been putting this off for years.

It was much more convenient and easier to do than I thought it would be. I don't know why but I always figured these things have to be complicated; but it really wasn't at all. All I have to do now is to get it notarized, have 2 witnesses sign and I'm done!)

I have been very lucky and blessed at the same time to have gone through what I have with a very strong Will to live. I hate hearing on the news about unlucky individuals who actually prove that sometimes it could possibly be out of our hands should a life be lost. I'm talking about victims in accidents or acts of violence. A life can be lost because of a selfish, hateful person who decides to take someone else's life or it could even be an accident, or even natural or health related; the responsible thing to do for your family and loved ones is to already have a Will or a Power of Attorney in place; this way loved ones don't have to suffer in the case that their own state decides to take over and claim everything that belongs to a family or just hold on to it for years and years while it has to get tied up in courts.

I don't know if this actually happens but the government has been extremely untrustworthy these past couple of years. Either way, I'm covered legally and now I don't have to worry about my honey getting screwed over by my own state government should something happen to me. (see I'm not totally convinced that I will die of Cancer) but it doesn't hurt to be prepared.

MY HEALTH UPDATE:

These past couple of days were a little easier but I still have had severe diarrhea and heartburn each and every day. I even started getting very painful spasms in my bottom that my honey had enough of me crying that I had to take a dreaded painkiller which did help lots.

I have even gained a few pounds and I hope to keep them on. The eating is getting a little easier by the day but overall the diarrhea accompanied with some really painful spasms is the worst of it right now. How unpleasant it is to have those sorts of pain!(.

Don't get me wrong, it's still wonderful to be alive and things could be much worse. I can at least be very thankful to be at home with my honey my pets, and that I can go outside on a walk and sometimes even drive to the store. At least these painkillers are working for this right now. I can't just sit there and suffer in pain and my honey is right about that. I was too busy being stubborn and just dealing with the pain by screaming and crying and then trying breathing exercises which did little to nothing besides annoy my honey. He had enough of that!

Well here was a wonderful laugh I got to have last night. While I was sitting on the couch in pain from going to the bathroom so many dozens of times when Tonto had enough and he cried for me to pick him up. He then slept in my arms for a little while and then when I put him down he just stretched out and napped while I watched movies. He was even snoring which really cracked me up until he woke up briefly, gave me a dirty look and then continued to nap out. Notice those big black toes!

I also found out a date in which to go back to work which should give me plenty of time to heal and to put some weight on my bony ass!) We are settling on the date of June 23rd. Mostly because of the kidney issue and the nephostomy bag and getting that removed. I don't know how long I will need to make sure that my bowels and kidneys are healed but I feel that 2 weeks should be long enough to heal. We will see. Also, I don't have any clothes my size currently and I refuse to buy any because I know they will be too small next week or the week after; so what's the point?

We had a nurse come by to change my dressing on my nephostomy tubes today and she found that the reason my heartburn has been so god awful is because I had been getting something for that in my feeding bag and also in the IV in the hospital. Now I am receiving nothing and the stomach acids have building up and causing severe pain. She called my doctor right away and he immediately prescribed Pantoprazole. My honey went and picked it up for me right away. Let's hope this works!)

I do notice that when I go out to the grocery store, instead of men looking at my boobs;(sometimes it happens and I just ignore = no big deal!) well now they are looking directly down at my nephostomy bag which most of the time is covered nicely with a scarf. I bet it's really sexy and perhaps it's also quite stylish I suppose. Maybe they have pee fetishes? Just kidding; but I don't really know what others think of it or feel when they see it; I hope that they see in it that I am a survivor of some sort and they should be incredibly grateful that their kidneys or body parts work. I had taken Miss Blue Belle to the doggie park and noticed a few people looking at it and I had it covered beautifully with a scarf that matched. Now I am going to have scarves that match Blue Belle too!

I don't mind at all wearing the annoying thing in public if it does this to others. I sport it around proudly and even decorate it so that it matches what I happen to be wearing that day. Blue Belle will get to wear matching scarves. I think my brother knows how to make them and he's visiting next month!

Even if this stupid nephostomy bag is still in place when I do return to work; I won't be embarrassed at all. My loving co-workers wouldn't even care or notice - instead, they notice my spirit most of all. I just hope and pray that I get to ride my new roller blades, bike, to swim, and most of all snowboard this coming winter season! For now it's walking with my dog, cat, and hubby!)