WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.
This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.
This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!
I have a total of 6 more chemo pills before the end of this cycle and the last couple of days I have been waking up in a great deal of pain. The pain feels as if I have rusted metal parts in my intestines which are trying to be digested. My intestines make quite a bit of noise as they try to move the scrap metal through my intestines. Yes, I'm a bit of a hard head sometimes. I didn't eat anything for most of the day yesterday and tried to eat a little bit of a pot pie (just the broth and vegetables) last night but my stomach just couldn't take it.
My friend had brought over some fresh hash for me to smoke yesterday and I smoked a little bit with her and then we went swimming shortly after. The combination of the Hash and swimming helped my body some. The pain had eased a bit, but after the effects wore off after a couple of hours.; I mostly wanted feel the pain outright just so that I could know what my body is facing in this battle. I do that sometimes, just skip of day of pain relief to gauge what my body is facing.
Well today the pain has intensified with a vengeance but I will try to smoke some weed later on today. I'm feeling a little weak today because I haven't really felt like eating with this metal taste in my mouth, the rusted metal churning in my intestines; just makes me want to sleep the day away. True, it makes no sense to continue in pain but I don't plan to be in pain the entire day. I will try to stomach a protein smoothie in a few hours.
I finally had enough of the pain and decided to try the new hash again. Afterwards, I drank a whole glass of prune juice, water, and Miralax and then went on a 3 mile bike ride to the post office. I hurried back as fast as I could and made it to the toilet; Oh boy! The pain relief had just begun! My mouth was so dry and lacking in that awful metal taste in my mouth. Thank god it was gone! I drank 3 glasses of water and a whole glass of Gatoraid and then watched some Keith Olberman at 5pm!
New Water Pipe
I almost forgot! I got one very important errand done yesterday and that was filling up the tank for my husband's truck and getting his truck washed. While the truck was being washed, I walked Blue Belle over to a head shop next door and was amazed at the prices and the variety of water pipes. I really needed a new water pipe in the worst way. A little over a month ago when my disability first started with the chemo, I was cleaning up my kitchen and accidentally knocked over my beloved gorgeous water pipe that my husband and I had originally purchased in Santa Cruz. I watched in horror as the gorgeous pipe fell over onto its side. All of a sudden bong water poured all over my leg and then the beautiful pipe fell into several peaces on my kitchen floor. It was a total loss and I was devastated.
We tried to replace it but the replacement was made of plastic and was too tall. We thought it was pretty and interestingly shaped but it wasn't practical at all and could be knocked over with little effort.
Well this beauty works great and while I do still utilize my Vaporizer, this particular bong is excellent for the instant pain relief. The vaporizer takes about 2 minutes to warm up, I also have to clean out the little canister thing each time and then set up the balloon. It doesn't work well with the hash. The hash needs more heat so the water pipe is perfect so now I don't have to use my little frog pipe.
A Romantic Dinner with my Hubby
My husband took me to my favorite restaurant this evening in downtown Campbell (Aqui Cal-Mex). So far so good, the digesting is a little loud but the Hash certainly helped me out with the pain. I can handle this! It was great to get out together and to show a little PDA. I'm so thankful to have him by my side fighting this battle with me. He makes all the difference in the world and most importantly, he makes me want to keep on fighting!
My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.
I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.
Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.