WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.
This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.
This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!
Toonces the Driving Cat (It's Official) Rest in Peace you wonderful soul 6/98 - 9/13/08
I finally got the phone call from the Silicon Valley Humane Society that I had dreaded getting should it happen. Toonces was humanely euthanized this morning. Despite this news, I have to say "bless their hearts", the staff really made the news seem not so bad and they were so incredibly caring and thoughtful. I choked up and agreed with the girl on the phone. He did have a wonderful life and even though my husband and I felt guilty, we knew we made the right decision. We could not let this wonderful cat suffer any longer just for the sake of him surviving and breathing.
I will continue to support this wonderful organization and I will even dedicate a whole page to them and the wonderful things that they do for animals in the upcoming Good Kharma Newsletter. You will be able to download a copy on this blog as well as the Website ShoppingKharma.
I was told that they had came to the solution of euthanasia after a few professionals consulted on what really was best for Toonces. It came down to the fact that YES he was in fact in pain and surely he did not deserve to suffer. Well, he isn't suffering anymore, he's at the Rainbow Bridge, where all animals goes when they pass on. What a wonderful cat he was; he had lived a wonderful loving life with us and we will never every forget him!
My First Poker Run?
Well not yet. My husband and I were considering going on a Poker Run but we ended up going to see a good friend of mine's son play in a little league game. We rode my husband's Harley up to see the game and it was a smooth ride. We rode on the highway (280 N- 85N, to 101 North) which was a big challenge for me. I didn't freeze up in fear on the way there; it was actually an exhilarating ride. Her son's team won the game and afterwards we continued on our motorcycle ride back to the South Bay.
I had one terrifying moment on the bike when I moved back a little far on the seat. I thought my butt might have slipped off the seat a little too much and I froze in terror. I held onto my husband as tight as I could without messing up his balance on the bike. At one particular moment, I thought I was about to slide right off the bike. I got over the fear shortly after by thinking of other things. I got through that one terrifying moment by gently sliding up once we had slowed down to switch highways. I really wish my husband had a Bitch Bar (I think I heard it called that before - It's that bar on the back of a Harley that the back passenger can lean on without falling off the bike) on the back of his bike!
Once we got off the highway, we then stopped for a biker party at our local pub (Ike's Lounge). There must have been over 200 bikes parked there and so many beauties! I saw one bike that looked like it had a very comfy Bitch bar that I wished was on my husband's bike. We got inside and a live band was playing. The singer sounded a lot like Janis Joplin and she had some serious lungs. I was impressed! Afterwards, all who had tickets were awarded with awesome prizes. One guy even got some really cool Harley Boots in his actual size of boot, another woman won the coolest leather jacket, and tons of other neat prizes.
The afternoon spent with my husband, was wonderful that we made some good memories together despite loosing old Toonce. In all we got to enjoy some real quality time together. These days, its important to take one day at a time and to enjoy each and every day as a blessing! Sure, you can feel sorrow but do move and live on!
My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.
I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.
Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.