What's with Disability? and more...

Well today is Tuesday, and I got a letter yesterday from Disability. I have been on Disability since August 18th and I filed that very same day, filled out some forms and even had my doctor fill in some blanks. I got everything approved with my job and now another bump in the road.

I specifically remember filling out a portion of the application that NO I will not be incarcerated during this time and yes, sometimes the chemo can make you feel like your are incarcerated or want to be incarcerated (instead) because you don't feel like doing anything. But its not the same!

I got a letter from EDD that I am to call and answer a question a second time. I guess they just want to make extra sure that I wasn't incarcerated during this time.

Here is the question verbatim:
1. AT ANY TIME DURING YOUR DISABILITY WERE IN THE CUSTODY OF LAW ENFORCEMENT AUTHORITIES BECAUSE YOU WERE CONVICTED OF VIOLATING A LAW OF ORDINANCE? YES____ NO ____

Ok well, I did violate quite a few smoothies, tried with no success to eat regular food, but it is just too painful to digest. I am still trying to eat regular foods that seem like it would be easy to digest because I am so hungry. I am working through the pain of digestion, but I don't think that counts or does it? Maybe I was being too violent when I slurped down my last smoothie. I just never feel violent at all after I smoke some cannabis to help me digest with less pain. I just feel so happy and exactly the opposite. I smile, I laugh, and I feel quite friendly as well.

UPDATE:

Well I finally got on the line (after a very long 15 minute hold) with a very nice man who is also a 2 cancer survivor and he said my check will be in the mail tomorrow for 21 days (after I answered the question that NO I was not incarcerated at all during this time). Not sure how much I will get but enough to help my husband pay some of the these bills. Thank god!

This always happens. Last year, I was on disability for just a month while I was hospitalized and it took over 3 months to get a check. I can't get over the state being that slow to pay the working poor when they really need the money.

Well last night was very hard for me to sleep; I started getting an abdominal blockage which was very painful and I couldn't sleep on my stomach because it was so swollen and it felt like I had a bunch of scrap rusty metal that I was trying to digest (it felt like I had a dead weight in my stomach). I woke up and smoked some hash and then drank 2 glasses of prune juice and Miralax. My mouth was so cottony dry from the Hash that I drank those glasses up pretty fast at 2:15am. By 4 am the blockage was finally starting to clear and I was going number 2 every 1/2 hour or so.

My stomach feels a little sore and a bit beat up but nothing a little POT can't fix. It's definitely the chemo pill getting to my system. I have 8 more chemo pills to take in this session and I will have a chemo infusion of the Avastin next week. I have hit the days where I will wake up feeling like I was in a bar fight the night before. Here's to getting through the next 8 days!