WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.

This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.

This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Getting out of the hospital tomorrow!....

Today was just another day where I am getting my body ready to go home again! I had some excellent, sweet, and caring nurses today who actually did care. I had no doubts that I was in good hands today. I even started a semi-liquid diet today. I couldn't eat the carcinagenic soup that was served to me in a styrofoam bowl and I should have photographed what the darned thing looked like. Do these cooks ever imagine what they would feel like having to eat this crap? Apparently not. My soup was so incredibly hot, that the bowl had partially melted to the right side (it was wop sided) and the plastic top (kind of like a fast food soda top) melted and curved upward; I just threw it straight into the trash. I really wished that I would have photographed it because it didn't look like any soup anyone would want to eat unless they wanted to feed their cancer more carcinogenic chemicals in order for it to grow. I just didn't wish to eat cancer causing ingredients from the bowl or the plastic. Not at all appetizing and in fact quite poisonous.
I guess the food industry here is with the pharmaceutical industries in wanting to keep us sick. I don't believe that all pharmaceutical companies are in the business to keep us all sick but there a sick few that do. I wish many would not team up like that but instead they would teamed up to try to make us all healthy and more productive. Good thing my honey brought me a delicious smoothie with Organic Whole Milk, Vanilla Whey Protein Powder, and a banana. It filled me up perfectly and it tasted scrumptious. How I can't wait to wake up next to him each morning.

My honey and I Skyped for a little while last night and he sure looked sexy; even holding this little puddy cat! Puddy cat even made some cute little sounds like "put me down!" or "not now!". He is a talker and I did hear him clearly tell my honey that he wanted to go on a walk outside with Blue Belle. If he dared to go outside with out him; he paces and paces the front door like a mad man.
Here is another beautiful photo of the two of us from last Saturday's Holiday party that a friend of mine sent me. I still can't get over how handsome that man is that is sitting just next to me here. He is my hunk-a-hunk-a-burnin love!)

Watching those DVDs from Netflix (Healing Cancer, The Beautiful Truth, The Gerson Miracle) really opened my eyes about trying to heal myself from this cancer all naturally with a 95% plant based diet. I often feel much better when I exercise, eat something good and wholesome for my body and then get good adequate rest. Well lately it has been a big Pink "NPO" above my bed; but no longer! It has been a good day for me today only feeling a little drugged out from the pain medications. I have been prescribed a stronger dose of the Fentanel pain patches and then utilizing liquid Dilaudid. Yes, the pains I have been getting lately have been warranting these types of pain medications (sharp, burning, and as if I have a hole in my stomach).

Well here comes the rain; we are supposed to get some real snow in Tahoe this weekend and I have been getting some real anxiety about missing a snowboard season because of my health but I do have a feeling that I have some real friends and a lover who is not going to let that even happen. We may even get some snow up on Mount Hamilton; and it would be cool to take Mr. Tonto up to the snow. I know he would love it with his huge webbed feet since he loves to play in puddles of water and then tracking inside my clean freshly mopped floor. I can just imagine what he will look like running in the snow with Blue Belle. This will have to be a video taped event not to be missed!)

We might just concentrate on getting our own little Christmas tree put up this weekend but who knows; we are so spontaneous as a couple and that is what I love best about my sexy cowboy! He has quite a bit to learn tomorrow including how to hook me up to an IV bag (Potassium Chloride) because I have to get that nutrition for at least 3 hours per day which should not be so hard. I'm so excited about getting out that it doesn't really phase me that I have this tube in my stomach. I'm just so happy that tonight is my last night of sleeping alone in the hospital and of course it's 4:15am and I'm working diligently on my blog. Shoot being in the hospital gives me so much more time to reflect and think about what to write in my blog and I am thankful for that. At home I always feel guilty that I don't always have time to write because I am too busy living life.

I have to wake up my honey tomorrow morning and be his wake-up call so that he can make it to the hospital early enough where a few nurses will be training him on how to hook me up to the Liquid IV solution. He is a such a cutie pie and he tries so hard to make me happy and to help me me get better. It really touches my heart in the warmest of ways to just listen to his beautiful voice as he is so concerned about me and doing this all right. He really does care about me and that's what I love about him most. I care him too and I could not even being to imagine how hard this journey is for him. It would kill me to see the roles reversed and me having to take care of him. I would do it in a heartbeat. My own personal sexy nurse only he prefers than I call him Dr. Armstrong!) I pray that I won't have to go into the hospital anytime soon. Peace and Love to all!

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MFA Mama said...

YAY for getting out of the hospital! YAY for better pain control! Maybe when you get home you'll be able to use some of your...er...*alternative medicine* to help you feel better and increase your appetite & drink more so you can ditch the IVs. When the PEG-tube is healed you won't hardly notice it (my son didn't), and if you can get them to replace it with a "button" that will be so much easier...I think you'll feel better when you get out of that place. Stay strong, girlie, we're cheering you on!

nat said...

Paging Dr. Armstrong... :)

I'm so glad you are getting out! Enjoy!

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My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.

I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.

Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.

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