WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.
This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.
This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!
Well I dropped my dad off at the airport. We sure had a good visit connecting on so many levels. We never really got to spend that much time together when I was a child because of my parents separating and my mothers alcoholism. Alcohol tends to affect many families and for me, it just made me not wish to be "like that" where the child is the parent of the parent.
We talked about painful things from our past that really needed to be said and to clear things up that had been confused over the years. Families really need to communicate and that is what we were able to do with this time together. We now know each other much better even though we don't think the same way politically. We just know better than to discuss politics and we can live with that.
He had trouble understanding why I had forgiven my mother for all the horrible things that I had happened to me during my teenage years and as I explained, it all made sense. My mother drank very heavily and was not around when I really needed her to be. I kept this pain inside for so many years until I got diagnosed. It was then that I realized that I needed to make amends and to actually forgive her in my heart and soul in order to continue my journey of healing.
After dropping off my father at the airport I had to go to the hospital for my "note to return back to work" and the last remaining 4 pills of my chemo (so now I have only 5 more days of chemo pills left no including tonights pill). I had to take Miss Blue Belle with me who made at least 10 or more people walking around the 1st floor of the hospital smile.
When I got home, there was a message on my machine about the results of my latest CAT scan. Those results are pretty good compared to my last scan. The tumors on my lung and liver have reduced in size while the one on my abdomen has also reduced in size. The results were overall good so it does seem the chemo is working. We will see how well I can work and be on chemo. I think I will do fine since I did work 6 weeks after a major surgery and the start of chemotherapy when I was first diagnosed. I do feel this extended break has done my body and soul some tremendous good!)
My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.
I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.
Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.