WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.
This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.
This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!
As I enjoy these last days of freedom, I can't help but be nervous about starting work. I have been out on Disability since the 18th of August and I have to be honest, it has been amazing to enjoy this time off. I thought I would be bored, but I managed to keep myself so incredibly busy. With Blue Belle, its so easy to find something to do.
This morning, my father and my husband went to a small bar in Campbell to watch football while I strolled around the farmer's market and many of the shops in the area with Miss Blue Belle. Every 20-30 feet someone would need to talk to us so that they could get some love from Blue Belle. She's too pretty to go more than 50 feet without someone seeing her pretty little face.
We got to this one stand near all the jewelry and art displays towards the end of the Farmer's Market. The woman had some gorgeous beaded jewelry that I had to go through. Blue Belle just looked so pretty that the woman had to go and feel how soft her lovely fur felt. We talked about Cancer and how Blue Belle has helped me so much especially Depression which does run in my family and many cancer patients tend to suffer once they are diagnosed. It's very hard for any patient to go through the hells of Cancer. I was prescribed anti-depressants at first (Prozac) which is the worst drug to ever be on if you are a newlywed if you know what I mean. It makes sex so non existent. You don't even notice that you have any sexual organs what so ever when you are on Prozac. What sexual organs you have as far as your mind is concerned is just for peeing and that's it. You never even think about sex at all and I was newly wed on this drug. I had to get off of it within 3-4 months. I did feel great but lacked any sexual drive. I had none. Well now I have Blue Belle and there is no need for any anti-depressants. You just can't feel sad with her around.
As we were talking the woman gives me a bracelet that she had made. She told me that she gives all cancer survivors that she meets these bracelets. It's more or less a token of her appreciation for life that these survivors have in them. Here is a photo of the beautiful survivor bracelet she gave me. Michele makes the jewelry part-time and works for a pediatric hospital full-time. She also talked some about the Pet Therapy Program and how perfect Miss Blue Belle would be there.
As Blue Belle and I walked around some more, we came upon this very cool car. I was snapping shots of Blue Belle next to the car when the owner came out and opened the front passenger door and asked if I would like to photograph Miss Blue Belle inside the car so I got a few great shots here. She loved every minute of it except that I didn't climb into that great car to give her a nice ride around town. See the power of Good Kharma?
After walking around the block a few times, I went over to the Sports Bar and my dad was ready to continue for more fun. We went up to Santana Row for some shopping and showing off our pretty dog. Not too many people approached us but as we walked over to a restaurant, a woman was pushing her buggy with 3 barking poodle dogs who looked as if they wanted to attack Blue Belle. She just sat there cool and calm not even phased as if a service dog. We finally found a restaurant to dine at on this busy Sunday afternoon with all the Christmas shopping packing all the restaurants. It was a gorgeous day (about 72 degrees) and we got to enjoy our meal outside so that we could continue to people watch. I got to take this pretty shot right in front of the restaurant where we dined.
My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.
I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.
Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.