Only 1 more chemo pill for this round as I just took one of those horse pills. It always comes down to the countdown of the icky pills. Those Etoposide pills with the horrible side effects. They certainly make my stomach feel queezy, painful, and kind of crampy.
I have had to cut down on eating regular food and I actually found some Ensures that are quite tasty and were on sale across the street at Safeway. They are the Butter Pecan and the Coffee Cream. I imagine I will grow tired of them soon but can at least enjoy them right now.
On Election Day, Tuesday, November 4th at 9am I have my Avastin chemo infusion. It seems I always end up getting chemo scheduled at crazy days and times. I remember my very first chemo ever. The nurse was so cold and calloused that she tried to convince me to come in on Thanksgiving day for my very first treatments of Taxol and Carboplatinum. Who wants to vomit their turkey dinner on Thanksgiving? Wells she had some openings so why not take advantage right? Wrong. I delayed that first chemo treatment until December 5th, 2002, I had gotten married on December 3rd, 2002. Hard to believe I have survived so much in 6 years.
Now some Good News! My CA125 came in the mail yesterday and I had taken a whole month off the Etoposide pills prior to this blood test. Prior to the 1 month off, my count was at 27. Without the Etoposide is now down to 24. Prior to the 27 count, it was at 35, and before we started Chemo, it was at 79. We just need it to go down another 20 points would be great, but every few points is a blessing. I am just thankful for everyday I am given because I see each day what a miracle life is. I watched women in support groups where we would loose at least one woman a week or two weeks. It got to me as I grew attached to these woman and it was just a stark reminder of just how deadly this disease really is.
Sometimes when my stomach is going crazy, I get scared and worry that with all the noise that what if something in there just explodes and it kills me. I try not to think like this, but I can't help it sometimes when the pain is so intense and the noises from my stomach are so loud. It really does get intense and scary. The cannabis helps me through these types of ordeals.
I did receive news that on Friday the rain will come! I realize that yes it will be on Halloween but they are expecting some snow fall in the Sierra's so we can just hope that there is enough snowfall to cover the rocks and to make a nice base for the coming months if only we get lots of storms to enjoy.
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