WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.

This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.

This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!

Monday, October 13, 2008

Last Chemo Treatment for now....

No this picture is not of me, but it is of Tonto my silly Manx kitty who is trying hard to make me feel better. He likes to make faces as me just to hear me laugh at him. It worked!

Lately, I have been suffering the effects of another painful bowel blockage and debating if I am ready to return to work a week from Wednesday (October 22nd). The pains from my current blockage comes and goes and what happens is that same feeling of getting kicked in the stomach accompanied with the sour milk, then my stomach swells and then it tries to move wastes or what ever it happens to be through my body.

It is fascinating to watch but the sounds are a bit disturbing. I do have to admit that I worry sometimes that what if this violent explosion sounds really are my intestines exploding from the harsh chemicals of the chemo deteriorating my insides.

I just started back on Etoposide for right now. I plan to take small breaks in between in this two week treatment. I have to look out for the best interests of my body and if it becomes to painful, I may just have to stop. Its the watch and wait game for now.

I stumbled upon a support group on Facebook for people whose lives are affected by Ovarian cancer. Its amazing how many wonderful women have lost their lives to this disease; some seemingly strong like me, I read some of their journals of their struggles and then see the last entry completed by a loved one who announces that the battle is over and that another angels has gained wings.

Its really sad to read these journals or blogs, but despite the grim realities of these women who often face death right around the corner; I still have faith in heart that I will survive this. I don't know what it is but I just have faith.

I do credit medicinal cannabis for now; I'm not suffering to the point that I am in total misery. The natural medicine does make it much easier for me to maintain a normal function in life for right now. That normal function involves me being able to get out of bed, take the dog for a walk, exercise, eat, clean my house, just do things rather than lay in bed all day.
I also have to give credit to the supportive people in my life right now.

In my previous posts about negative people, the truth to that is that I can't be around those who feel sorry for themselves, play victim, or are negative about life in general. I need positive support right now and those who talk badly about others or just place blame on others for things in their lives that may not be perfect. We all have a bit of control in each of our destiny's.

Life is to be treasured and to find the positive in the right now rather than focusing on the negative most of the time. Its good to acknowledge the bad, but take the good with the bad and you can get by the harder times much easier.

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My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.

I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.

Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.

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