WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.
This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.
This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!
Well today is my mother's 62nd birthday and on Monday I had shipped her a whole care package of face wash, moisturizer, eye gel, teas, and photos for her enjoyment. I also called her and we talked for a long time. We always have great conversations especially when politics are discussed. We just can't say enough about the issues that really matter to us. We are both excited about Obama becoming the first African American President.
We have so much admiration for this young man, mostly because he didn't come from an affluent family; he struggled as we have struggled. He seems more genuine. He put himself through school on scholarships and student loans and even graduated at the top of his class. I feel he has a passion to help our future. He has lots of life in him and ambition and that's what we both appreciate. His mother also died of the same cancer I currently have and I peaked at his tax returns to find that he donates a significant amount to Ovarian Cancer Research.
Education used to be a very important factor and lately the role of President, intelligence and education haven't mattered much lately and instead people tend to vote for one they would rather have a beer with instead of the one who is really more qualified to lead. To us, it doesn't make any sense to vote for the one you would like to drink with, we vote for the one more educated, calm, and capable of good decision making.
We are also worried about the election becoming stolen as the last two have been. We both don't trust McCain on many issues; primarily his judgment and his insanity. Its funny that we both feel that he is merely a horny old man who doesn't seem so happy in his marriage; although we do admire him for at least serving in the military and for surviving 5 years of imprisonment; however that doesn't really qualify him to be our leader. We don't feel that he really has the best interests of our Country in mind. It's like he wants to extinguish the middle class and instead have only 2 classes of people; very, very rich and poor.
During our conversation, I also found out that my mom's scare of a suspicious lump in her breast turned out to be nothing. She is fine and currently I'm the only one in our family fighting cancer. I'm so glad! I would never ever wish this on anyone I love and care about. Cancer has caused a lot for me in opening my eyes about life in general. I treasure it all the more!
Well yesterday was a fun day indeed spent with my neighbor's 13 year old daughter. She had the whole day off from school and I was feeling much better than yesterday. I didn't have to take anything for pain for 2nd straight days-NOTTA!)
You see life comes packaged to you in many ways. I think it might be the good lord that does these things. One part about life is that you really do have to accept those around you and to try to affect every situation as positively as you can; at least I do. I feel much better if I do.
I don't have any children, nor can I have any but I am NOT entirely useless as many cold hearted people may find me. I am still able to hang out with kids and to teach them about the life I have learned to love. It really disheartens me to read about people who would deny others from being able to be with the one that they love because they can't have children. Yes, I am talking about stupid Proposition 8 which is based on lies about children learning about gay marriage in school just in order to deny these individuals the opportunity of benefits that married couples are offered. -NO MORE POLITICS I PROMISE!
To get back to my day! I started my day early, cleaning up the kitchen and making up the bed and then my young neighbor called to see if she could come over and hang out with me for the entire day.
I was fine with that, so she did while I was making some worm tea for my plants. We finished a few things around the house and then packed our things and left to go have lunch with my husband which instead we ended up looking for costumes for Halloween. Of course my neighbor enjoyed this opportunity! We didn't have enough time for lunch with my husband but we did go to the mall for a late lunch and then perusing all the shops at the Oakridge Mall. What 13 year old doesn't like to go the mall?
After many hours at the mall, I got seriously tired so we went home, I caught my breath and then we walked across the street to Safeway and bought 2 huge pumpkins which we carved. I had her do one of the pumpkins all by herself except taping the template to the pumpkin. We had printed up the templates off the web. I wanted to enter the contest on YesWeCarve.com for a chance to win her an Ipod Nano. She has been bugging me for one for about 2 years now and of course I really can't afford to buy her one, so I figured, maybe I can try to win her one! We will see!
My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.
I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.
Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.