A New Medical Device to help keep me alive...

Bet you are wondering what that strange looking overs ized device this thing could be?   Well just knowing that I had it brought out the worst in me (just today only and don't worry; I totally learned my lesson!).  While I did get myself in trouble today; yesterday was much better.  Today, I have been puking quite a bit from trying to eat stuff that I really can NOT eat (chicken nuggets and fries).  That saying "Life is short" should never ever give me the excuse to try to eat what I want.  I had cleaned the unit last night and did not attach the vacuum pump exactly right so I was  just sitting on my couch attached to this thing ( when it's on, it sounds a lot like an aquarium) watching repeat movies on HBO while puking my guts out (& being hooked up to the dam thing through the tube in my tummy).  It wasn't vacuuming my system at the time (just running and making plenty of background noise) and I was so sick that I could barely move.  Finally, I forced myself off the couch and then cleaned out the unit again (just to see what up and why the little puke canister wasn't filling up?; OK it was just one of the tubes that needed cleaning and it was then that I discovered that it wasn't hooked up correctly (that entire time; must have been about 2-3 hours?).  I fixed the problem but am still feeling a bit sick, weak, and in some amount of stomach pain.

OK, I do have to say that Saturday was such an awesome day for me; had some visitors and then I had this huge device delivered to me from my sweet doctor.  He knew exactly why I wanted to avoid coming to the hospital (lonesome, bad TV, uncomfy bed, and being waked up at all hours of the night, no pets, etc.) I'm receiving home health care at home so that I can avoid being in the hospital; well it's not so fun there.  I haven't been able to eat for nearly 2 weeks and have been draining my stomach like crazy. I have also been smoking pot for the severe nausea and of course the pain  associated with the blockage in my tummy and then of course the most horrible side effects of the pot is the hunger and the thirst.  It's either that or taking hard core drugs like the constipating side effects of Dilaudid and Zofran.  Since the nausea and the heartburn have been out of control  (off the charts) and I was  also very constipated already; treating my condition involved more or less a roto rooter type thing in order to get my intestines working again; plus they needed some rest?

The best thing of all happened on Saturday and that was that I had a huge blow out!)  It was so freaking awesome!)  For most; one of those is really no big deal and a bit embarrassing to even admit to; but for me; it was a joyous celebration for my life!)  I'm still freaking happy over that!) 

Well having the severe munchies (its nothing at all like wanting to murder anybody (pot does not cause death or make anyone wish to kill anyone) it's not dangerous at all; its just wanting to eat FOOD); my honey had made himself a Dejorno Pizza which smelled absolutely amazing to me with those munchy tendencies of mine.   That is why I am so on board with reclassifying it (in the 30's they had no freaking clue about this plant).  I always get going when it comes to the medicine that has been helping to keep alive so long!)  I still get into reading "The Emperor Wears No Clothes".   I love that book!)

The device was exactly what I had experienced in ER (stomach pump) where my tummy was most often pumped.  Before the G-tube; I had to use NG tubes in order to pump  my stomach and the G-tube definitely makes it much easier and more tolerable.  I have NEVER been up for anything shoved up my nose so you imagine that the NG tube to me has always been a total nightmare and very, painful depending on the size of the tube.  It really gets annoying by the 2nd day so you can imagine after over a week or so!(

Well to get back to the device; its basically a medical device that can pump my stomach and boy did I use it after I had 2 small pieces of pizza (just the cheese and sauce = no crust for me).  I ate that (it was the first thing enjoyable I have had in over 2 weeks!); then immediately I hooked myself up to this unit in order for it to pump my poor tummy of stuff that it wasn't at all used to.  It was so amazing  just to be able to eat those toppings!  I loved every minute of it and savored those little moments!  Then for the next hour and half; I hooked myself up to that unit and  let it drain me of all those bad things I had just consumed into my poor little body!

TONTO'S CHAIR HAS TO GO

I know it's bad news for him.  We have to make room for this huge device and my honey and I decided that the broken old worn out recliner has to go and this medical device will go in this corner.  Tonto will have to go back to using his cat tree once again and I know he won't be very happy about that. He will just have to learn to sleep somewhere else.  Hopefully he won't protest too loudly as he sometimes does when it comes to him loosing more weight.  Yes, he needs a tummy tuck and he feels that extra skin needs to be filled with more kitty treats.

TODAY'S SPECIAL HORSE

Well here is the pretty big horse that needs a good home or some extra feed what ever we can do to help her out.   Isn't she just stunning?  Her name is Kiowa and  she was born in May 2003.   I think she is named after the Kiowa Indian Tribe in Texas?  She isn't halterbroke just yet but just needs someone to just give her some extra loving care that she deserves.  She is a Draft Mare and her adoption fee is $800.  I would love to give her a big hug and smell her!  Horses smell so good and I bet her nose feels like velvet!)  Just contact Jennifer Johns or Cheryl Forbes at animali@aol.com.

 I still have hope in my heart that I'm young and that I can get myself stronger and that my insides will eventually heal!  I hope to be around a long time for my sweetie or that we are around a long time for each other.  I love how we take care of one another!)  It always gives me such pleasure to do the little things for him as he does for me.  He really makes my life so much more worth living and strengthens that will to survive even more than ever!  I did eventually get my lazy weak ass on my beautiful bike; didn't go the whole distance but did go around my complex a few times!)  I hope to take you all on another bike ride soon!)

Peace and Love to everyone and here's to all of you cancer survivors out there and everyone else having many, many good quality years ahead of you!)