Chemo = Blood Transfusions

Well this hospital stay has been very lasting; a whole entire week here almost seems like a whole month. This year I have literally spent months in the hospital this entire year. I don't even think I went longer than a month or two before being rushed into ER. In fact much of this year has been about me being sick and I sure hope and pray that 2010 will be a much better year for me. Perhaps I will find my cure soon as I do have much hope that there really are cures to my Cancer out there somewhere. I'm not going to give up hope and I am more determined than ever to find a cure.

I have been watching an incredibly inspiring movie on Netflix last night (The Beautiful Truth); a documentary that follows a young man's journey to Research Dr. Max Gerson's Therapy as he is inspired to investigate its premise that diet can cure cancer and other diseases. This is just more evidence for me as I do intend to find out more about this particular therapy and or contact any doctor that I can who has cured a patient of cancer. I also found this fascinating website which has a wealth of information which I plan to research (Independent Cancer Research Foundation, Inc. ). There is all kinds of hope out there for me!)

I'm so determined to beat this thing that I am even willing to be a human guinea pig for Natural Therapies (in order to help find cures for others who are suffering as well; yes its kind of like I am donating my body to science and research while I am still alive); I don't have much to loose if I don't at least try; I could loose my life. I have already been there done that for the very dangerous chemical therapies (I consider them dangerous because of the severe side effects and for what those who were administering those treatments to me have had to do in order to protect themselves from being exposed to those dangerous chemicals) that are being pumped into my poor little veins ; so now I am more than ready for natural cures rather than those dangerous scary chemical treatments. Oh those side effects have been killing me lately!

There has to be a much better way and the Government really needs to step back and allow for the use of Natural Treatments and to not lock up doctors or destroy their reputations needlessly of those who have found cures. I have also been reading in Suzanne Summers book (Knockout) about these very doctors that she interviews in her book and how the FDA (hate to say it but looking at the FDA's website; it looks very unhealthy= that's just my humble opinion) tried to shut down their businesses and then tried to sue those very doctors who have actually cured their patients (with Natural Treatments that posed no dangers to the patients) and how many patients drove or flew from all over to tell their success stories of how these doctors saved theirs, or children's lives in order to save the these doctors who were about to face prison. These doctors saved lives and were facing prison time? That does not sound right now does it? Gee, would I prefer a Treatment or a Cure? I know I may be getting off the subject just a bit but when things are not right; I question "well why isn't it right?"

It sure would be nice if some these drug company CEO's had more compassion for patients (it would be great if they actually had the capacity to walk in the shoes of these patients); it just seems that many just don't care. What if it were them going through those hellish side effects in order to survive for just a few months? How about surviving a few more months and not having to go through agonizing hell? It's more important that patients have to take dangerous chemicals (chemotherapy) rather than being so concerned about making billions more in profits.

I do know that there are still some companies that do offer in their pipeline have good treatments for other types of diseases but I'm mainly thinking of Cancer treatments for which not a whole lot of research has been done (Natural Treatments) even though there are thousands of patients who have been cured with Natural Therapies; it's prohibited by the FDA? I wonder why? It's so sad that there are so many greedy people who rather see patients die or have to go through the agony of hellish side effects in order to make a quick buck than for patients to actually be cured of their illnesses in a very healthy natural way.

This is just one of many things that I really hope get fixed with our Broken Health Care System and I sure hope and pray that it does gets fixed. Drug companies could still make drugs that help people and it would be cool if they could also have access to researching more natural cures and what works best for the body; how to make the body protect itself from illnesses; replacing broken DNA or turning on receptors in the body that is perhaps keeping the patients from being able to fight off the cancer or illness that is ravaging their body.

Imagine a world where Compassion was more important than Greed; saving a patient's life was more important than pushing a bunch of meds that maybe won't work for that patient? or denying a patient vital health care when they need it most? Imagine our National Health Care System where doctors would be rewarded for curing and or helping save the lives of patients rather than how much drugs they could push onto a patient. Many of those drugs being pushed are not really needed and may even cause the patient more harm than good. Doctors, Pharmaceutical companies, and even insurers could actually step into the shoes of those patients ("what if that patient were myself or my loved ones? ") for which are being treated and to have the ability treat those patients with dignity and the respect that they righteously deserve. What a wonderful Country/World I hope this will be one day!)

Both the Movie I watched and Suzanne Somers book both had in common was Nutrition being used to help the body heal itself. Nutrition really is important and it sucks that so many companies that produce foods which contain chemicals that our bodies are not made to digest like Partially Hydrogenated Oils, and High Fructose Corn Syrup, and MSG are actually killing many of us causing diseases such as diabetes, Parkinson's Disease, many types of Cancers, heart disease and much more. I don't know about you but I would love to eat foods that eat cancer!)

Our Western Diet is more about chemicals for which our body has not been programmed to digest on ingest. This film is very fascinating but it's been discouraging to try to watch since the network at the hospital is so freaking slow that I only get to watch maybe 5-10 minutes of the movie at a time; I started it last night and it took about 4 hours just to watch about 40 minutes of the film (I'm still trying to watch it). Sorry I had to go off because it really does frustrate me that our Health Care System is so messed up for so many Americans and good people. Why is it that Prisoners get excellent Health Care and are not even turned away but good hard working citizens who abide by the law are turned away? Now that is a broken system worthy of being fixed.

Many apologies for getting off track; I just care too much.

So how I am doing in the hospital today? Well because of the dangerous chemicals in this last treatment (definitely not a cure); I had to have 2 more blood transfusions and will hopefully get to go home from the hospital tomorrow. I did get to eat today; had an OK breakfast. I immediately threw away the sausage link because they stank! I had some french toast with High Fructose Corn Syrup, tangerine/OJ, apple sauce and a Boost Energy Drink that contain 340 Calories. Then for lunch; they sent me a Puke sandwich (Egg salad = I hate eggs; they stink like puke and even look puke) I had to toss that in the garbage along with a cold bean salad (not supposed to have high fiber beans = my intestines can't take it), had a few bites of Pineapple and another Boost Energy drink with 340 Calories. My honey brought me a Tuna sandwich from Togos with Avacado and Provolone cheese = Yum!

Another scary thing is that I have been shitting up blood (yes the world does revolve around me taking a nice solid crap). So bloody diarrhea and lots and lots of gas today. I had horrible gas pain and then I had some serious diarrhea which contained lots of blood. It really scared me although I am laughing about it all. It tripped me out because my blood counts were terribly low again. Did I shit out all the Blood that was transfused from Monday? I had just had platelets replaced just yesterday. Then I had some horrible stinky gas and thank god I was able to rip out quite a few and it was a such good feeling. The pain was getting relieved and it felt so dammed good to be able to rip out some good long farts! They awfully low pitched. It was such a good thing a friend of mine had brought me a beautiful Rosemary Plant in order to freshen up my room!) It was so good to see my friend. My room needed that nice fragrance after all that gas. I was also very thankful that I didn't have any Sharts (fart where shit comes out!) I felt for sure I would; but thankfully not!)

My honey and I also talked on Skype today as well as watching a kind of dumb comedy while in the hospital but I snapped this cutie photo of my hot honey kissing his cute little puddie cat!

I also got that stupid Picc line removed today. because I have having so many fevers and it was obvious from my blood cultures taken that the Picc line was more than likely contaminated and therefore it needed to be removed. Well what's very cool about getting this picc line removed is that once I am out of the hospital; I will now be bagless and cordless! Yippeee! Nothing is going to hold me back from snowboarding this season! What a fun season this will be!

I am a little worried that perhaps the infection could be stemming from this ureter stint that has been in my body since June 18th. It is due to be removed and I missed my appointment with the Urologist who would be scheduling the surgery to replace the stint.

Anyway, I am hoping and praying that I don't get any more fevers or infections and that I get go home and wash my dirty little girl (she hasn't had a bath in over a month and half!). My honey and I have lots of shopping to do (Our 7 Year Wedding Anniversary is on Thursday, then his birthday just a few days later; and a Christmas party to go to. Life will indeed go on. I can't wait to ride my beach cruiser and hell just get out of this place! Here's to no more hospital visits in 2009 for me and any of you reading this blog. I extend my love to all of you! Peace and Love to all!)