The things that make you feel good....

I have been noticing in the mornings after taking my Etoposide pill that my insides feel quite battered and bruised. It's almost as if I did 1000 sit-ups and then getting kicked in the stomach and /or sliced up with a razer blades. It's pretty sore and then the intestinal block isn't helping matters at all. Quite painful indeed. Tonight I will skip the pill and allow my insides a whole day of rest from the pill that makes me bleed.

I have been loosing a few pounds here and there but haven't yet broken the 130lb mark just yet. I am big boned and I look best at around 140 - 145lb (look healthier). I can't for the life of me really eat anything with out feeling lots of pain and suffering afterwards. Nothing tastes good and the only taste of food that I am craving at the moment is popcorn which is a definite NO NO for me. How I love popcorn and how it doesn't love me or my intestines!

What Does My Poo out of Feet mean today?

Just take a look at the poo that came out of my feet today from my foot detox. Now keep in mind that my bowels are quite blocked and quite painfully at that, but I did feel some relief after this particular treatment.

There is a lot of foam and kind of a metallic turquoise color that just floats over the top. (I took this photo with my phone since I forgot to bring my camera.)

So this time it looked like Bile function and then Liver which is good to detox for me at this time. It's only been 2 days since my last Detox treatment. Miss Blue Belle got to sit on top in the Captain's chair which I promise to photograph next Tuesday (Aug. 26th).

I still remained blocked the rest of the day and when I returned home after the treatment, I got a message from my doctor on the results for my X-ray (taken on Wednesday, Aug. 20th) which had a significant amount of Fecal in both the lower intestine and the upper. My doctor feels that I need a serious Roto Rooter treatment for me! I need to double up on enemas and Phosphate sodas (yuck!)=rotorooter.

Still more poopie problems for me,! I hope you feel better about being able to take a nice dump today! The severe pain that I feel in my abdomen almost seems like what ever is in there is being stagnant like the chemo that makes me feel like I am digesting a stomach full of razer blades.


Miss Blue Belle was a such good girl again today and then we went to visit my friend in San Bruno (the one who cleaned my house on Wednesday) to let Blue meet her new kittens. These cute kittens didn't really know what to think of Miss Blue Belle. She looked so scary at first and each little kitten had a little mohawk equipped on each of their backs. They started out on the top bunk, then moved to the lower bunk watching Miss Blue Belle intently. Then they moved to the floor watching her every move. She hid








Here they are checking out Miss Blue Belle who was extremely respectful to the babies knowing it was their house and she didn't want to stress them out so she walked out of the room when she heard one hiss at her. The babies would climb up and then climb down a level on my friend's son's bunk beds. It was first time for both of them to ever meet a big scary doggie.

Since Blue Belle has her reputation with cats, we felt if there was one dog we could introduce to those kittens, it would have to be Miss Blue Belle. She give them the biggest chance of gaining confidence and not being so frightened of a dog!



When I got home this evening, I got another phone call from a stressed Florists who had tried desperately to deliver flowers to me just yesterday on the complete other side of town. The Street name and the address and unit number were transcribed wrongly so another attempt to deliver today. Within a few minutes I had this beautiful bouquet and an adorable teddy bear with a very sweet card from the entire department at my job! If that doesn't make me feel better, I don't know what will. Every little bit of good kharma makes me fight all the more for my loved ones!