We can try to open it up and that's what we plan to do this week (we can NOT do it surgically). My doctor made a list of things for me to try to follow just so that I get to go number 2 quite often. Since most people have normal hard stool, he said that it would be best that I have soft or almost diarrhea and to go all day long. If you fall in the normal range, please consider yourself lucky. Imagine if you had to go through the shit I have to go through and I mean it quite literally.
I get to drink lots and lots of Miralax which kind of tastes like cigarette ash if you just have it with water. What I like to do is to pour a little bit of Blueberry, cranberry juice, or any juice (no sugar- just fruit sweetened), add the Miralax, then top off with water. Anyway, I have double my doses of Miralax, stop taking any laxatives or fiber since fiber cause bulk in the intestines where normal people (not me= never been normal).
Next the doctor suggested that I should refrain from eating any foods like salads, dairy, meat (which is not a problem - I will miss the cheeses!) I can eat soup, baby food, and PediaSure. I am not a big fan of PediaSure because it does have lots of sugars (which feed cancer).
I have been utilizing Whole Foods for the soups and Alive Ultra Shake. I really do miss eating food but just these couple of days I will need to live on the PediaSure and nothing with substance (no fiber!), just liquids. Its so hard to do because my tummy also growls when its hungry.
Then I also get to utilize lots of enemas and suppositories.! Oh boy! Sounds pleasant huh? That's just how much I love life and will go through all of this just because of the man I love and of course all the loving people around me. It really does make me feel good when I see that I touch others lives the way that I do. Those are the important things to me in life, it how we make each other feel and the impact we can make on each others lives.
Later that night, I watched Barack Obama's acceptance speech as I lay in a great deal of pain. I watched the entire speech with so much hope in my heart that the pain seemed to dissipate slowly. I cried at times in tears of hope and inspiration. This young man actually made me look forward to the future of our Country as we all work together to make improvements on all that has failed with 8 years of an Administration based on corrupt lies and no respect for the laws that govern our country. I pray that many Americans are smart enough to vote for what is obviously right for our Country. To read more, check out my blog Peaceful Liberal.