The Day after another treatment.....

Well I skipped the Etoposide pill on Friday night because of the pain that I was experiencing and I decided to take it last night (Saturday Night) with a large glass of water. I awoke with that awful pain of being kicked in the stomach with razor blades. I have 3 more chemo pills to take before I get my 1 week off & then go in for my infusion of Avastin.

My husband and I awoke early enough (9am) this Sunday morning and decided to go the Santa Clara Fairgrounds "Home and Garden Show". I was a little bit doubled up in pain, but the pain was treatable. Prior to going to the show, I had to smoke out my pipe prior to walking in because of the pain. I just wanted to feel normal and is that wrong? I just wanted to pain free enough to have a quality of life and to enjoy the world around me.

We brought Miss Blue Belle with us to the show as she worked with her vest on. She was a working girl and did she show it! She was a show stopper as many had to get a glimpse of this pretty working girl. Many would just stop to ask about her and why we needed therapy. I was open enough to tell anyone that had asked me about her; and with such enthusiasm that yes, I am fighting and I have people around me who love me and are praying for me. Most were shocked to see me who appeared healthy but was actually very, very sick. I am still very strong most certainly with my husband by my side.

As we were making the rounds inside the exhibit hall, I was speaking with a distributor of those Ionic Foot Baths. Some people sitting in chairs trying out the foot baths and as I shared my experience with the foot baths. Blue Belle jerked me midways in the conversation. Out of the corner of my eye as her jerked her back to my side, I saw a frail old woman being pushed in a wheel chair as she is reaching desperately for Miss Blue Belle just as she was pulled to my side. I immediately stopped the conversation in order to let Blue Belle do her work.

I leaned down quietly as Blue Belle gently allowed the frail elderly woman in the wheel chair (also on oxygen), happily pet and love on Blue Belles soft warm fur. She had a smile on her face that extended cheek to cheek with all teeth showing. She was in heaven for those few minutes. Blue Belle just sat patiently and licked her arms without jumping up to lick her face as she has been doing a little less lately, but it has stopped her in her tracks from getting certified to visit hospitals and patients. She can legally be by my side as my own personal Therapy Dog, but not for someone else because of her habit of jumping up. My husband then looked over just as other spectators smiled at us for what we were doing for this little old lady. I felt in my heart that I would treasure those little moments just to make another person smile or feel happy. My husband then gave me that special look he gives me every so often that makes me love him even more! That look just warms my heart no matter what or how I feel!