WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.

This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.

This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Happy Birthday Miss Blue Belle!

Today Miss Blue Belle is officially 4 years old and it is raining like crazy outside.   Happy Birthday Miss Blue Belle!)  She is such a good girl and so patient with us as we got to sleep in to the sound of rain outside our window.  I love that sound; it kind of reminds me of getting everything all packed and ready to go to Tahoe; but definitely not this year.  My intestines and strength would not be able to take it.  I can't even take a trip to SF which is only about 45 minutes away.  

Blue Belle is kinda sad that she is cooped up inside and has to be towel dried when taken outside for pee pee or poo break.   Tonto somehow got himself inside this clothes hamper to relax and hide.  He cried to me and I had to grab the camera for this shot of him looking up at me as if to tell me "Look what I did!).

Well also this week; Blue Belle finally got all of her paperwork from Therapy Dog International including her tag, ID Card with gorgeous photo of her, a certificate and a bandanna.  All I need to do  now is to go to the hospital and complete my volunteer paperwork, get a TB test and of course show them all of Blue Belle's paperwork and we can then start volunteering.   I'm hoping that I will be able to do this and that I will have the energy to walk Blue Belle around the halls; I may have to be pushed in a wheel chair since I can't be on my feet for very long; (that's why I use my bicycle a lot to walk my dog).   My bike kind of acts like a wheel chair for me so that I don't have to stand and feel that horrible burning, pinching, cinging pain of my intestines feeling as if they are being stretched and pushed out of my ass.  

OMG does that hurt when that happens and most of the time it's my intestine relieving themselves.  (lots of pooping and needing to stay at least 5-10 seconds to bathroom!)   But life usually goes on and I get by!)  I also get the worst case of hiccups sometimes when those spasms occur and then the painful vomiting.  It burns quite a bit when it comes up.   Yes, that kind of  pain is so sucky and to have wouldn't you say?  Yes, it's embarrassing but I have to deal with it daily and my cannabis use really does help me quite a bit in dealing.   It is a blessing to have and to use!  I laugh a whole lot more and that is so important these days!  My kitty makes me laugh all the time!

Well back to that miracle plant, it is a God Send for me; I am so thankful for this plant in so many ways.  I don't feel I could live through this kind of pain and then to have relief in just smoking a joint; I feel I deserve that relief.    I'm so happy that finally this plant is just starting to become accepted in many states for other patients such as myself.  I love California just for that reason; we have a lot of compassion for people and I see so many people who are so giving to me and I'm very thankful to have so many around me for which I write about.  Their kindness inspires me in so many ways. 

Well, I'm also on lots of other types of pain medication because of all of these surgeries which I hope has not damaged my intestines for good (I really want to be able to go back to work; I  really miss everyone so much!( and I hope some of this pain isn't the cancer itself which it could very well be.  I just know in my heart that if I do have any ounce of energy it will be used to enjoy all the great things that I do treasure in my life.   

Well today we plan to enjoy the rest of this wonderful day and pamper our little girl since we can't do the play dates we wanted to with her friends.   I got wash my hair with this amazing shampoo!  Don't worry, I have my own brushes and Blue Belle has her own too!  Now we both have amazing hair that we can sport together!   Please don't worry about me and my pain; I am gaining weight slowly (I'm up to 115lbs!) Yeah!  I hope I can maintain it and with the heavy backpack and IV I weighed 121.5!  Wow!

Hope you all have a wonderful day!  Peace and Love to all of you! 

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Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Blue Belle. Thanks for the You tube of the punk and the Vietnam Vet. I laughed so hard.

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My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.

I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.

Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.

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