Happy Birthday Miss Blue Belle!

Today Miss Blue Belle is officially 4 years old and it is raining like crazy outside.   Happy Birthday Miss Blue Belle!)  She is such a good girl and so patient with us as we got to sleep in to the sound of rain outside our window.  I love that sound; it kind of reminds me of getting everything all packed and ready to go to Tahoe; but definitely not this year.  My intestines and strength would not be able to take it.  I can't even take a trip to SF which is only about 45 minutes away.  

Blue Belle is kinda sad that she is cooped up inside and has to be towel dried when taken outside for pee pee or poo break.   Tonto somehow got himself inside this clothes hamper to relax and hide.  He cried to me and I had to grab the camera for this shot of him looking up at me as if to tell me "Look what I did!).

Well also this week; Blue Belle finally got all of her paperwork from Therapy Dog International including her tag, ID Card with gorgeous photo of her, a certificate and a bandanna.  All I need to do  now is to go to the hospital and complete my volunteer paperwork, get a TB test and of course show them all of Blue Belle's paperwork and we can then start volunteering.   I'm hoping that I will be able to do this and that I will have the energy to walk Blue Belle around the halls; I may have to be pushed in a wheel chair since I can't be on my feet for very long; (that's why I use my bicycle a lot to walk my dog).   My bike kind of acts like a wheel chair for me so that I don't have to stand and feel that horrible burning, pinching, cinging pain of my intestines feeling as if they are being stretched and pushed out of my ass.  

OMG does that hurt when that happens and most of the time it's my intestine relieving themselves.  (lots of pooping and needing to stay at least 5-10 seconds to bathroom!)   But life usually goes on and I get by!)  I also get the worst case of hiccups sometimes when those spasms occur and then the painful vomiting.  It burns quite a bit when it comes up.   Yes, that kind of  pain is so sucky and to have wouldn't you say?  Yes, it's embarrassing but I have to deal with it daily and my cannabis use really does help me quite a bit in dealing.   It is a blessing to have and to use!  I laugh a whole lot more and that is so important these days!  My kitty makes me laugh all the time!

Well back to that miracle plant, it is a God Send for me; I am so thankful for this plant in so many ways.  I don't feel I could live through this kind of pain and then to have relief in just smoking a joint; I feel I deserve that relief.    I'm so happy that finally this plant is just starting to become accepted in many states for other patients such as myself.  I love California just for that reason; we have a lot of compassion for people and I see so many people who are so giving to me and I'm very thankful to have so many around me for which I write about.  Their kindness inspires me in so many ways. 

Well, I'm also on lots of other types of pain medication because of all of these surgeries which I hope has not damaged my intestines for good (I really want to be able to go back to work; I  really miss everyone so much!( and I hope some of this pain isn't the cancer itself which it could very well be.  I just know in my heart that if I do have any ounce of energy it will be used to enjoy all the great things that I do treasure in my life.   
 

Well today we plan to enjoy the rest of this wonderful day and pamper our little girl since we can't do the play dates we wanted to with her friends.   I got wash my hair with this amazing shampoo!  Don't worry, I have my own brushes and Blue Belle has her own too!  Now we both have amazing hair that we can sport together!   Please don't worry about me and my pain; I am gaining weight slowly (I'm up to 115lbs!) Yeah!  I hope I can maintain it and with the heavy backpack and IV I weighed 121.5!  Wow!

Hope you all have a wonderful day!  Peace and Love to all of you!