Brushing Blue Belle....

Well as promised; I have all needed to brush and groom my beautiful little Sheltie Girl.  I may not be doing it all the right way (I've never been trained to groom a sheltie; although I have worked in a vet's office bathing and grooming pets).  "Spartanburg Animal Clinic"  I want to thank all of you for one of the most amazing experiences in my life!  I learned a lot while working in this little Vet Clinic and even got my brother a job there (just to get him away from Hardeez (fast food).  Now, my brother is a professional groomer (they helped him go to school for grooming and even helped in him getting his own grooming van) who used to be his own boss but is now working at Petco in Spartanburg South Carolina.  He hopes to get another van soon and I hope he does.   I am so proud of my little brother for actually succeeding at his own business.

I tried many times with no success (con artists) to start my own business but I am very happy that at least one of us in the family is doing something that he very much loves and so is my dad.  I have no idea how some people can actually sleep at night knowing that they are conning the elderly and of course people like me (naive and more than likely not well enough to make any financial decisions) with empty promises of making obscene amounts of money.  Their bills and everything they owe will be gone in just 3 months.  Yes, those kinds of empty promises I fell for and have learned my lessons.  How can they sleep at night knowing what they are doing is wrong and hurting the innocent?  I just hope what comes around goes around for these kinds of criminals.

I do  love what I have done  in my life (I at least found my one true soul mate); he completes me and most of all gives me a reason to live, to fight hard, to smile every day and to laugh; he is totally and completely hillarious and I always told myself that I would indeed marry a man who could make me laugh and that he does and with out much effort!).

I too have had many wonderful jobs that I very much enjoyed  doing.  I won't mention all of them but I was always very  happy with many of my jobs and dissatisfied with some as well; but most of the dissatification came with other workers who rubbed off some of their negativity of their displeasures with their jobs or even their lives.  It always comes back; do you wish to be around someone who is always complaining or someone who is brave enough to take the cards that they are dealt with and the make the most of it.  We all need positive energy in our lives and it's so refreshing when I speak with other survivors who know now more than ever that they are going to enjoy the rest of their lives no matter what!   Who wants to be around someone who feels sorry for themselves?  I don't.  Yeah it sucks sometimes but I have to make the most of it; I do have quite a bit to be thankful for.    In all that we do; we should have some control over our lives and not have someone else controlling us and our every moves; who knows what if that freed mind were able to make something great for someone else?  I hope I am making sense but you give someone happiness in their job and they tend to give back a whole lot more.   I kind of think we all experience what we do for work and whether or not we feel trapped or happy with what we do for a living.


Here my sweet honey is taking great care of me getting my IV ready to hook up to me and he is doing one hell of a fantastic job at that!)  Everyday he does this and so much more.  I have no idea why my mother refused to watch all that he did to take care of me and to keep me alive?  I take those little things way too personally but I just wanted so much for her to see what he does so that she knows  that he isn't a deadbeat.   I hate that she thinks that all men are all bad or are deadbeats.   I kinda think she feels that all men are dead beats.  I happen to know personally that this man is no where close to being one and I know of many others who don't fit the bill either.  You can either open your eyes and see the good in this world or just choose to see the bad; your life is a choice in how you live only mine hasn't been so much of one with all the pain I have been experiencing and un-control over my intestines and such but my honey does make those horrible little things so much better to live with.

The most important thing in life is to make time for family (don't waste too much time = I feel like I'm doing a lot of wasting as I get very sick sometimes) and those who mean the most to us and especially in this time of sickness; I am enjoying lots of time with my honey and you better believe that I'm cherishing each and moment spent with him until he has to go to work).   I pray that I will be able to go back to work one day soon; I hope I am able to get stronger and that some how, some way this disease is obliterated from my body for good!  Here's to a cure and a miracle that I somehow get better and through all of this agony that I experience daily.  Sometimes it hurts to breath from all the scar tissue in my tummy and I cry sometimes from the pain and then my dog helps me get out of another panic attack over death.  Yes, I am very scared that my life may end soon and I hope that it doesn't.  As you can see in the following videos; I am keeping my spirit high and doing the things that do make me happy;  hope you enjoy the following videos:

4-5 new videos to be up soon; I promise!  Peace and Love to all of you!

February 18th:



Feb. 18th part 2



Feb. 20th Part 1 (More Grooming!)  Blue Belle's Birthday is February 21st and she will be 4 years old! Must look smashing for her birthday!






Feb. 20th, Part 2 of me practicing on the Indo Board; as you can clearly see; I am quite weak in this video. Some days I have energy and some days I don't have enough to even get out of bed and this troubles me quite a bit.





Peace & Love to all!