WARNING: Some of the Content here may be Objectionable to some. I have this blog labeled as "Adult Only" as a common courtesy for those who may easily be offended by Adult topics such as the Truth, Down to Earth topics, realities of living with Ovarian Cancer and/or any life threatening disease that goes along with it; Sexuality, Medicinal Cannabis, Profanity, and of course plenty of unpleasant body functions are also discussed here. This is a very tough battle for which I don't intend to hold anything back on what I am facing.

This blog is very personal and comes from the heart of a real fighting cancer patient who wishes nothing more than to live for all of those I love my own will to live, and my love of life. While sometimes I might be on heavy medication (prescribed by my doctor) and occasionally I might write about things or subjects that one may never even think about or consider; so please consider that as well. Yes; whacked out things might even be found here; but I mean everything in all good intentions.

This blog is not at all intended for the faint hearted, those who lack a sense of humor, have no idea what down to earth means, greedy mean people, and/or those who don't know how to share the world with others, and especially those who are unable to easily put themselves into the shoes of others. This blog is mostly about my journey of living my life in the best ways that I can under the Golden Rule and appreciating all of the GOOD KHARMA that comes my way! Never take anything in this world for granted; especially family and friends!

Friday, June 4, 2010

UPDATE: Out of the hospital; bedrest for 2 weeks....

Well I did get out of the hospital on Sunday and it has not been a very easy week.  I promise to post photos and/or video when I can.  Following doctor's and home nurse's orders and staying in bed; first time on internet in over a week. 

Since spinal fluid was involved; I needed to stay in bed and receive fluids; we are hoping I gain more weight in the coming week and perhaps I will get stronger; it's hard but we are  coping and doing our best as we all should do.  

It hasn't been easy knowing that I was addicted severely to those damned Fentanyl patches (250mg) changed every 72 hours; so that wasn't so easy smacking myself silly; getting horrid, shakes and not to mention horrid headaches when standing; then came the caffeine, no-doze to treat the deal with my spinal fluid and my horrid addiction to those fucking patches; I have to say Fuck here!  

  But I am a cancer patient who technically has cancer still eating my body alive and this device which I feel they could have put in my boob rather than perhaps above my poor bladder; at least I could have 1 nifty boob to place into a bra?  I hate having to be treated for horrid pain but it's the only way right now until someone thinks of better things; like Why Cancer?    I have 10 staples to get out Monday on my tattoo on my back; and about 20ish or so on my tummy where this round device lies?

Anyway; gots to go and hope to update again soon!)  Still got that sense of humor!)  Peace and Love!

WARNING: This video may be disturbing to some viewers; Viewer discretion is advised since I refuse to edit out all that I am facing in this battle for my life.  Hope you all enjoy; it's as real as it gets!)

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coffeemaiden said...

Oh honey. What an awful week. I hope things ease somewhat for you. You're in my prayers and thoughts.
Love ya,

Anonymous said...

You are my hero and a true inspiration. Hang in there!


Aroma Fields said...

What an inspiration you are! I admire your amazing strength. Sending positive thoughts your way for a quick recovery from this latest surgery.


nat said...

Withdrawal on TOP of the pain? Oh CJ - I feel for you. I hope the pain pump takes care of your pain, and that everything else settles down. Please heal well, and don't try to do too much too fast! Hugs

Anne Delina said...

May god bless you. Padre Pio please ease her pain, and help her suffering as she does battle with cancer.

You have truely inspired myself as a caretaker, and my best friend who is also going through ovarian cancer.

TC said...

Hope you are feeling better. I have thought of you even though I haven't commented lately. I've been doing like paying webwork and by the time I get through with that I don't do any more on computer....
I hope your pain is better, please know so many are thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

I hope you aren't being hard on yourself for what you call being "addicted" to the pain patches. It sounds like your body built up a tolerance to them and you are having withdrawal symptoms. Those are two elements of addiction, but please do not take that to mean you are an addict! You were taking them under medical supervision for the condition prescribed. Tolerance and withdrawal alone do not make an addiction. I do not feel that cancer patients should have to worry about being addicted. Where you are and an addict are totally different circumstances. Your body responded appropriately to a chemical just the way it is meant to respond. That is all. You were doing absolutely the right thing in using the medication, and now you have a different alternative that will hopefully be even better for managing your pain.

Good for you for doing the bed rest! That kind of thing is difficult, but again you're doing the right thing. Even though it's a rough path, sounds like you are making very appropriate decisions for your health. Kudos!

Love, hugs, & healing to you.


MaryAnn said...

Anne Delina...I pray to Padre Pio for CJ also!

CJ, keep the faith and know that others truly care about and love you so very much. I am in your corner and want a total knockout of the beast.

You are in my prayers every night. I pray that you do not have to suffer so and that your pain lessens. I pray the cancer stabilizes.

The person who told you you are NOT an addict is dead on! What wonderful friends you have! Do not feel guilty for the medication you absolutely need to give you quality of life.

Keep fighting! Fight fight fight!
Tons of love and hugs,

Mischa said...

I hope this new little device offers you some relief so that you can spend your time thinking about wonderful things, and not dealing with the pain. Love and peace to you!

coffeemaiden said...

Precious Jayne,
I hope you are recovering and progressing every day. I just wanted you to know I'm still thinking and praying for you.
Love You,

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My techniques and treatments work simply for me and may not produce the same results for others. Cancer is a very tricky disease in which it is very different in everyone it touches. No two cancers are the same just as we humans are not the same. What works for me may not work for others.

I love life and expect to live for as long as I can. I intend to use those treatments that do work for me which includes medicinal cannabis. I'm still alive with this disease over 7 years later because of this miracle plant and as long as I have my medicine available; I intend to survive many more years. I hope one day the Federal Government will eventually grow up and be led by true leaders who represent the people and not just coorporations; real people who live by the Golden Rule "treat others how you would want to be treated". I also hope the Government of the US can finally learn to admit that it has made a mortal mistake in making this life saving plant which is provided by GOD and does indeed have the ability to provide all of us with food, fuel, clothing, shelter, and medicine; a mistake that have made is that it is illegal. Yes, it was a mistake out of greed, ignorance, and racism that this miracle plant is illegal. This is a confirmed fact and we should all know and face it.

Cannabis is not at all harmful and in fact quite the opposite. Perhaps our economy can once again grow as it has in the turn of the century by making this life saving plant legal once again.

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