A Higher CA125 = worrying...

Well I have been experiencing more abdominal pain and this morning awoke to the taste of blood. It's kind of scary and I just got my results from my last CA125 which was taken last Monday, Nov. 3rd. This one seems to have gone up 2 points and this was with the Etoposide. Prior to this CA125, it was at 24. If it goes up again, more than likely I will need to change chemotherapy treatments. I pray there is something new and am hoping for a chance for a study in analyzing my own tumors and then building a vaccine like treatment. I know this sort of treatment is showing promise.







These treatments seem so hopeful and I certainly hope and pray I am qualified to utilize them. For now I am just going to hold on to hope and faith that things will get better. The snow is coming and nothing is going to stop me from going snowboarding. If I have any addictions, then it is definitely the feeling of going very fast down a mountain with the cold wind hitting parts of my face, flying through the woods, hitting natural jumps. Even when I do fall, it's a reminder I am still alive and well; despite the cancer. As I go faster and faster down a mountain, I imagine cancer cells dying. In fact when ever I am exercising or doing anything physical, I imagine cancer cells dying.

This is just another bump in the road.

Today's meditation for today: #214 Practice this visualization to give you the strength to keep going when problems seem insurmountable. Visualize yourself at the bottom of a mountain whose summit is enshrouded in cloud. You embark on the long and arduous descent - the path is steep and rocky, the damp air chills your skin and the mist grows even thicker. You concentrate on putting one foot in front of the other, trusting that the path will deliver you to your destination. Near the summit the clouds disperse and the way ahead becomes clear. You realize that as long as you have the strength to keep going; all challenges conquerable.

From A Chemist's Point of View B17

I wrote a dear friend of mine who used to work with me and he has his PhD in Chemistry. I showed him the videos and here is his take on the videos and this Vitamin B17.

"I have viewed the videos that you provided.

Unfortunately the chemistry; pharma; and medical literature is replete with citations showing it is not a vitamin at all. Based on its chemical structure, it is a labile compound which essentially generates cyanide.

http://www.ajcn.org/cgi/reprint/32/5/1121

Continued from my friend's email: "While I am a firm believer that a proper diet rich in vitamins and the lesser risk of cancer are related, I am of the view that promoters of "B-17" could be cashing in on peoples need to try anything to get cured from cancer. During my medicinal career I have noted no conspiracy to shun inexpensive cancer treatments in favor of more expensive ones.

Please continue to undergo the use the most up to date treatments (traditional and nontraditional) available."

Well, being the hard head that I am, I still want to try this while I am on break from chemo. I won't do much of it but at least some of the foods involved. Sometimes I have to learn the hard way. I won't over do it, that's for sure and if I feel pain or loose energy, I will definately stop. What I don't understand necessarily is that the first time I was on chemo, I felt like I was going to die at times. I faught hard then and I will continue to fight.

I also plan to try this Water Alkalyzer because it looks to be convincing enough.

It is incredibly expensive (over $1000 for the cheap one and $5000 for the more expensive better quality one). I plan to purchase the cheaper one.

It is evident that I will need to start hard core treatment eventually and I will have to say good bye to my hair but I do plan to donate it so that this time it doesn't go to waste.
I guess it's true, I am one of those cancer patients who is just willing to try anything to be cured. I just love life so much and am just not ready to go. I don't like living with this disease at all, even though it has helped me to help others, changed me in so many ways, and of course I appreciate life more than most.

Hell if I go to the bathroom it is a wonderful day! I just don't take little things in life granted, that's for sure!