The Next Snowboarding Adventure....

Well I'm working Monday - Thursday this week; with Friday being the day of the huge scan (do I need a shit bag or a puke bag?) I'm hoping and praying I need neither. I am hopeful for a miracle and that all of these vitamins will be the answer. The scan will be scary enough but I have a snowboarding adventure to think about but not that I won't be scared shitless of the results of this scan or how long will this scan actually take (2 hours or all day long)? Will I have time to wax my board, or clean up the house some more so that my visiting relatives don't think my husband and I live like pigs.


Kingsford Goes to the Beach

Hope you enjoyed the cute piggy video one of my carpool buddies sent me! Too cute not to include especially since my husband and I will be rushing to get our home cleaned in time for our family (brother, sister, niece, and mother= hubbies side) arriving from Wisconsin on Friday the 13th. We will be doing a Flashlight tour at midnight at the Winchester Mystery House that very night! We don't have much time to prepare and to plan our snowboard adventure; but I sure as hell need one!

I just started taking the vitamins just a couple of days a go because I got too impatient to wait to ask my doctor. Reason being is that I was mostly scared of the pain I have been feeling in my lower abdominal region and just took things into my hands. I'm just not ready for surgery just yet and things are starting to feel better although I have been having a few restless nights in a row (Sunday night and Monday night) of waking up every 20-30 minutes to go to the bathroom and waking up in a puddle of sweat. Yes, it all scares the shit out of me (really shit was coming out of me all night long = that's actually good news!) At least it was coming out; to be quite honest and I really have become more accepting of my funky body functions which are not so easy to understand; especially for me. In the meantime of experiencing them; I do try my best to not focus on them (because in all honesty it does scare the living shit out of me); I try breathing exercises, even denial of even having this disease, dreams, and hopes just to help me get by.

Some side effects I have been somewhat worried about lately is the heartburn (it hasn't gotten much worse) but there is the addition of more gas in my stomach. It's not painful gas but more or less heartburn pain. Sometimes I am able to pass gas (very rarely= I even strain to get out a little pathetic pooooof) but I do have to watch it or else it's a shart!) but most of the time I have been burping (man I have I been letting those go and loud they are!); especially at home. I've actually been having loads of fun burping at my honey, laughing as he tries unsuccessfully to out burp me! Yeah they are loud!

I don't usually burp as loud as possible at work - sometimes in the bathroom I might let one go if no one else is around; but most of the time I try to silently. These burps have been heavy duty (super loud) stinky burps which usually smell like something acid-y that I must have eaten previously (sometimes up to 2 days prior or more). This is worrisome and makes me almost loose faith that my intestines just might be failing as my doctor had been guessing. Could my doctor be right but I really do hope he is dead wrong. I still have faith, but the fear is really hard to shake.

Just to change the subject of the loud stinky burps

One cool thing I saw this morning on my way to work I saw a full rainbow that extended from the San Carlos hills over to my work (all the way over highway 101). It was magnificent and I made a wish that these vitamins will work; the power of the mind and prayers. I just need to get my immune system strong enough to kill those S.O.B. Cancer cells and for my intestines to heal on their own. One friend of mine suggested I get the Pacman application installed on my iPhone so that I could zone out and gobble up cancer cells. What a fantastic idea! Die cancer cells! Die!

Back to this Colorado storm that's happening; California is finally getting some much needed rain which also means that since this storm is originating from Colorado; the Sierra's will be getting lots of excellent powder for me to play in this weekend. Yes, we are planning another snowboard Adventure in which we will be leaving early, early Sunday morning for Kirkwood Mountain Resort in South lake Tahoe. I'm hoping to enjoy at least 2 - 3 days of fun powder! Well actually the energy level I have is amazing.

Every time we go snowboarding I feel absolutely wonderful for several days and the exercise and fresh air must make that cancer completely miserable. Serves it right too; because this weekend the S.O.B. better note that I have plenty more days in which to make it miserable. Get the F*&@# out of my body!

Life is so wonderful to be feeling so much pain sometimes (it's not all the time). I don't feel it now but sometimes I do and its so great to be able to do something about that pain. It's there still when I do something about the pain but at least I have this plant which enables me to also do other things to get my mind of of the pain. It's the reality of this disease which should have a cure.

Now for the political portion of my blog.

I'm very hopeful of this new administration and each day I am relieved when I read that he is doing something about the wrong that is going on (people loosing jobs, laws that or stipulations that were passed wrongly) and so much more. He is making right so many things that I believe in especially protecting animals and nature. People will finally be working and that's a good thing. See I only read the good news and if it's bad (TV=off),

Rich people and poor people all pay taxes and we should all be paying an equal share as far as income that we have to live off of and I'm so relieved that taxation will once again become fair. You have to work your share and pick up your own weight. That rich dude in the big house in Los Altos or Los Gatos will be paying the same percentage as my husband and I pay; finally. It costs money to have more money and that's life. I just want what I do and earn to not be wasted.

I'm OK paying a little more in taxes as long as my taxes go towards making my country better and helping others to get good jobs or health coverage. I do know how important health coverage is and there is nothing wrong with having it. My husband and I make no where near $250,000 together and we qualify for a cut in taxes which is a good thing but even if we had to cough up more; I'm all for bettering my country. I would rather have people working than not working and getting unemployment staying at home. His campaign was certainly run successfully and why could he not run our country with that much success? He is basing much of this budget on the New Deal that Roosevelt passed getting our ancestor's out of the Great Depression. I have faith and I intend to keep it!)

Healthcare reform is also in the works and so is stem cell which really gives me tons of hope. So much hope to look forward to and yes there are many who are praying for failure as sick as that is but mostly for their careers in that they hope America will fail. We do ultimately survive hard times; they just make you tougher and more resourceful. Here's to all of us working to make our Country great again! That's the hope I am talking about and all of us working together!)

Mystery Illness Continues....

We had a long night last night even though my temperature did get down to normal, I still woke up in a pool of sweat (my sheets were soaking wet). I still felt incredibly groggy and did not feel at all like getting up, taking a shower and getting ready for work. My head was pounding and I didn't get to check my temperature, but I did get to email my boss and hoping I would feel better to go to work in a few more hours. Then when it was time to wake up, I still felt groggy and dizzy; so I took my temperature (forgot to photograph it) but it was a low grade fever of 99.6; my stomach (same spot where I had a tumor implant removed in 2005) just burned in pain. It's a very sharp pain as I if I could have pulled a muscle or maybe its a hernia?

Sorry if any of you just had lunch or if you happen to be eating. In September 2005, I had a tumor implant removed here and after about 2 weeks (actually it was more like a month) this gaping hole just happened and it really burned like it was infected. We did everything we could to take care of it. What a gaping hole huh?


It's come a long way since then; you can hardly recognize that same spot. I do feel some strange sharp pains in this exact spot and it doesn't even appear to look likes it even causing me any problems.

Go ahead laugh at the PJs; they belong to my husband. I like to wear his clothes sometimes when I'm sick and home alone. It just makes me feel much better and like he's right there with me taking care of me.

To be completely honest, I have been having moments of pain that just feel as if my guts are going to spew out of this somewhat of a gaping hole (only its not a gaping hole right now). OK, I do know that does not sound very pleasant. This is just the reality that many of us cancer patients sometimes have to face. We sometimes live horror movie lifestyles in having to deal with this stupid cancer. I prefer to watch comedies most of the time; as you can tell I have seen my share of horror. Check it out when I first got the surgery and check it our now.

NOTE: The teal circle is where the implant was removed and also used to be a gaping hole. Now my stomach is not at all swollen, I just have soreness and it hurts like crazy to get up out of a chair.

We will see tomorrow what's the root of this pain. I plan to see my doctor tomorrow afternoon at 3:30pm and will hopefully be able to update you all on what is going on. I have been taking Motrin, Tylenol Cold & Flu (OK maybe that's not the best for me, but dog gone it, it knocks me out and makes me sleep it off) and I just started chewing on some cannabis buds which really helped to relax me; it sure forced me to drink lots of water; plus I did after all go to the bathroom (#2) more than 5-6 times through out the day, so everything is flowing through. That is really a good thing; actually its quite the miracle!) I'm happy for that.

Oh I also did my saltwater flush (1st thing in the morning each and every morning) which is working pretty much everyday. I still take the Miralax only with Blueberry juice. I had to switch the Prune Juice since the Salt Water Flush is really working out well for me.

For me, everyday is a new day to just try my best and sometimes obstacles like these stupid colds just happen. Sometimes pains will happen that end up scaring the crap out of us. It's more or less a wake-up call. Sometimes a good deep breath, close my eyes, hold it in and just think of my cute husband, my cute dog, my cute cat and all my cute friends and family will work to get rid of at least some of the pain. I really do have such a fond appreciation for all of those who are thinking of little old me and wishing me the very best. - thank you!)

Sure many of us are very involved in our lives (that's exactly what we are supposed to do;o) and I just pray that most of us are having happy lives; mines still happy don't get me wrong, but I have to go through these little battles every so often in order to get better a long the way; and perhaps this one will make me stronger. Is a cure just around the corner? I sure hope so!)

UPDATE: 9:35pm PST: Here unfortunately is my just recorded temperature. I was just having some chills and feeling quite dizzy. Uggghhhh, I thought I was getting over this, now I have a high fever again. I'm still alive and my loving husband will be taking good care of me. I guess there goes going to work tomorrow! I don't wish to get any of my friends sick! I mean that from bottom of my heart!)

I could barely get up off the couch to go to bed because of the pain in that same spot (tumor implant). I started a crazy coughing madness that really ached that part of my abdomen and of course my temperature just kept rising.

We nearly went to the emergency room last night because of the pain I was in. It was a very close call; we were so close when all of a sudden my hard headedness sunk in. I kept imagining being in the hospital for several weeks and not being allowed to leave. Instantly I just started bawling and tears just rained out of my eyes (I'm going to the see the doctor tomorrow anyway:). I just didn't want to give up and perhaps get an even bigger super bug than this one. I really hate being in the hospital and I finally just put my foot down. I cried protesting going and just curled up in the bed to try and forget the pain I was feeling.


I couldn't go to the hospital unless I was really dying and I didn't exactly feel that way. These coughing fits I was having literally felt as if I had ripped something inside of me each time I coughed. My husband got some cold compresses and just tried to get my temperature down. I just had a sheet and we finally got it down to 100.2 prior to me konking out.
When I finally konked out, I was able to sleep peacefully through out the rest of the night.