No Snowboard Adventure for me....

Everything was set; doctor said it was OK, I had everything washed and ready to go and then my honey started getting a sore throat. Colds just happen to be going around so we didn't want to chance it. I took good care of him making him Chicken noodle soup and grilled ham and cheese sandwiches, going to the grocery store for other items he needed, made him his TheraFlu and some tea for his sore throat. I did everything I could think of for someone I love so dearly. I have to take good care of my honey!)

Relatives will be arriving on Friday the 13th and our house still appears to be inhabited by pigs. We still have tons of cleaning to do and a snowboard adventure just wasn't realistic enough for us this weekend. It just would not have been responsible to go.

Oh I wanted to go and had even considered just a day trip by myself but the snow report doesn't look so good and there isn't any fresh snow or hasn't been for at least a couple of days which means most of the fresh snow is either tracked out or frozen. No ice for me! This would have been dangerous for me since I do prefer the fresh powder over the ice. The temperature these last couple of days has been warm; exceptionally warm; more like t-shirt weather. I had to take off my hoodie both Saturday and Sunday and today is a little bitter cold and windy. Not like yesterday or Saturday.

I did get to have a few enjoyable shopping trips with Miss Blue Belle as I picked out a whole new bathroom theme for our downstairs bathroom. We are retiring the old Sun and Moon Celestial Theme and in with the Bay Area themes. The downstairs bathroom now features a Pigeon Point theme with some light houses, beach, and seashell.

We have a Bay Meadows Photo to hang and have also been looking at tapestries; mainly Thomas Kincaid (I'm obsessed). He supposedly lives just a few miles from us in Los Gatos. Why not and his kids happen to go to the same school as a former car pool buddy of mine?

We already have a golden gate photo that I took a few years ago of the Golden Gate Bridge. I photoshopped it to the point that it looks like a painting and then picked out some matting and a frame. It's our home together and it's small but we love it!

Now to my health.

Well it has taken several days to get the barium out of my system. I've been going number 2 quite often and it's so incredibly weird to be shitting out white matter that looks like Soft Scrub with Chlorox Bleach. Sorry for the honesty but at least my system is still working!) It sure would be ultra cool if that Barium could clean my toilet like the Soft Scrub.

I plan to call my doctor tomorrow to find out when we can get together to discuss our next plan of action. My system has been making the loudest noises ever while trying to digest and I pray it keeps working. It kind of reminds me of a scary movie where the pipes keep making loud noises (like grinding up bodies or something). Yeah! That's exactly what my intestines are sounding like!) The gases built up can be scary in that the burps are still rather loud at night. I'm not passing gas as well and that usually takes work and it's painful on my abdomen to try to do. It's still quite sore in that spot (yeah it's still there).

If that's the case; why the hell did I want to go snowboarding in the first place? Because I'm one crazy cancer patient who just can't get enough fun!) I guess I would rather die having fun than to die sick in a hospital and my doctor knows this very well. With this disease it's best to cherish your good days as much as possible.

We had sushi last night and I didn't eat a whole lot but I did moww down on the ginger and the miso soup. I also ate some salmon and some California rolls. A cheap date I was.

Almost forgot: I did get to take Miss Blue Belle to the park to play some frisbee which was very fun. We even gathered a little crowd cheering at each frisbee she caught. These little kids and their parents were entertained more so that the usual of going to the park. Blue Belle got 4 Days in a row; getting exhausted at the park!) She's one happy pup who has 1 more fun days to go! Yes, I am still taking my Tuesday off! Lots to do and icky taxes!!!!!!

A bike ride and long walks...

Life for me outside of the hospital has been everything a miracle is meant to be. I actually feel as if I survived quite possibly the impossible; once again!). It's a miracle to be alive and it's also quite the miracle that I didn't have to have another surgery just yet!

To say that I am grateful to be out and to get this second chance is a major understatement. I have to be honest; I was actually puzzled being in there possibly facing another major abdominal surgery. It was shocking to hear that I might need to be opened up once again. This was much more different than the usual abdominal blockages which are most often fixed with the good old roto rooter method. It was so scary to hear that I might actually need that surgery, but it was so soothing to hear that I made it through with out needing one for right now. I know I have said this hundreds of times, but my key to life is right now and how very grateful I am to have all of these moments.

I don't like to reflect too much in the past, but sometimes I can't help it. Reflecting on this hospital experience has been incredibly surreal and I'm thankful to have made it out. I was actually worried for just a little while that my dreams of having a home in the woods where where I could actually rescue horses or other animals in need wouldn't come true and that may be heaven for me would be that Thomas Kincade painting of a house in the woods away from most civilization; in nature. This is the image I saw of my dream house where I could rescue horses formally in the HRT business. What a dream that is and I can wish that one day it will come true.

We always long for more in life and I'm happy anyway just being able to experience more fun with my husband, friends and family. I will still have those dreams of us living out on range together and away from the city life and the peaceful country life on the farm.

On Saturday, my husband and I went on bike ride on his Dyna Street Bob and his good friend had just gotten his custom Harley Sportster. Not sure what kind but it looked more like a racing bike than what most Harley's appear like.

We had a nice soothing ride up Hwy 9 into Ben Lomand. It just felt great & incredibly exhilarating to be outside in the wonderful weather and to feel the wind hitting my face while looking all around me.

I even saw some nice peaceful little farms with horses, goats, and even cattle where it would be an absolute heaven to live. It really was a gorgeous ride as we get to go on another ride on Monday (the day before we get a real President).

We got home a little after 5:30pm and I was already tired for a nap. I haven't been getting frustrated at myself anymore for getting tired easily and am mostly grateful that my body is able to handle doing a few fun things through out the day. I do get tired closer to the end of the day but I am still very, very grateful to be able to climb into my own bed for a peaceful nap.

One thing that has been helping me with stress is avoiding the news. I made a pact not to watch the news this week and to just focus on getting better. Life really does go on and we have to cherish what we have right now without worrying for the sake of worrying.

I am also very thankful to have the strength to be able to go outside and to take my beloved dog on a walk. What a gift! Whewhooo! No more chemo for right now!

HEALTH UPDATE: So how am I feeling? Well, my bowels are still kinda sorta working and I am able to eat some things but not without some sort of pain sad to say. At least I'm alive and I'm not in the hospital! The first 3 days out of the hospital was a bit nerve wracking in that I wasn't able to go to the bathroom; so I laid off eating anything solid until I went. I doubled up on the Miralax and from then on it was just Ensures and more fluids. We even called the doctor to see what else to do.

Finally day four, I was able to go and go i did! Lately, I have been getting lots of heart burn when ever I do eat anything; even if its just soup. I'm still on antibiotics; avoiding dairy products, no coffee, no complex items to digest, trying to stay out of direct sunlight, skin and bones (123lbs) and more. I still do my yoga twice a day to help aid in digestion and every once in a while if the pain gets to be too much, I utilize my vaporizer which always tends to work in these situations and thank god for that natural plant and that I'm in CA!).

I have go to see my doctor on Thursday to see how our progress and or next steps will be. We will see!)