Butter & Cookies....& more chemo...

A good friend of mine kicked down some great medicine for me. Its a good thing because I was running low and the stuff I was using just wasn't working the way that is was. Your body does tend to build up a tolerance sometimes and I see this just with chemo.

The medicine my friend kicked down helped me in the following bulleted points.

• Its strong enough to dull the sharpening abdominal pain from frequent blockages
• strong enough to relieve the pain of painful digesting and the sounds of my intestines have even calmed down
• really makes me so incredibly thirsty that I can drink up even the most nasty cup of poo looking concoction (Red Rubi Prune Juice) with 2 scoops of Miralax and some lots of water.

Do you think just any anti nausea or pain medication can make this concoction taste yummy? See, looks like poo, make me go poo? This picture actually makes it look a whole lot yummier. That color black you see, it really is black and it looks exactly like I am eating my diarrhea like pooh. The actual cotton mouth and thirstiness really helps me drink this stuff at least once or twice a day every day!

No worries for me. I got to make some wonderful butter in my pressure cooker all day on Sunday. I placed several sticks of unsalted organic butter, melted it and then let it simmer for 12 hours in a bunch of buds and stems. Not sure what else to call them, but my friend had kicked this down for me for cooking purposes so thought why not get to work and make sure this doesn't go to waste.

The house had a very interesting smell to it as I cooked this concoction in my pressure cooker for 12 hours. Now I didn't stay in the house for the entire 12 hours. I took Miss Blue Belle, my neighbor and Tess the little Yorkie that is so in love with Blue Belle to the park to meet Blue Belle's boyfriend Jagger. The 3 played so well together in just the beginning until Miss Tess got tired out from running. She sat in her mom's lap and would go sneak kisses from Blue Belle periodically.

After our fun at the dog park, I took my neighbor home and then went to the Farmer's Market for some fun adventure with Blue Belle. We went inside the camping store and of course Blue Belle being the child magnet that she is stopped a few people in their tracks because of her fluffy appearance where she kind of looks like a pretty colored "Sheltie" to most. I told this one woman, go right ahead, give her a big hug and she looked up at me like "thanks, I need this". Blue Belle has a gift with people where they just melt in her fur. I think its really sad for people not to have a dog in their life and to get that dog itch out of your system, you really need a hug from a dog like Blue Belle. I have no problem at all sharing her sometimes. The woman told me to stop by her booth later on.

Here is a cool photo I made Blue Belle pose in front of this rat rod? That's what my husband called this car with an interesting background. These cars have kind of an unfinished look about them with out paint and most often with primer or just bare metal.

After a couple of shots with this cool car and the next car we saw. We walked back up to the woman's booth where she gave me lots of organic grapes, peaches, and prunes (oh boy!).

When I got home, I pulled out the juicer and juiced most of the grapes, some peaches and prunes. It was like a mixture to use with my miralax. The grape juice was very sweet and excellent. I know its a bore to hear of my constant struggles to go to the bathroom. In all reality I need to be on top of it all the time.

It's great to have so many good things in my life that can help me achieve this. Good kharma equals doing good things around me and it most certainly comes back in my case. It surprises me so much when it does and sometimes I am in shock.

After the full 12 hours of cooking, I turn off the crock pot and let it cool some, put on some rubber gloves and grabbed an old pair of pantyhose. I grabbed the tied bundles of weed and placed them in the pantyhose for draining out the butter. Finally after all the butter was drained, I poured the melted butter in a few containers and placed in the fridge.

Monday my husband had the day off and we had planned to drive to Santa Cruz since weather was incredibly beautiful. We all intentions of going, but instead we had a fun naked day together. (just being honest) It was still good quality time for the two of us. We relaxed the whole day together and I made some excellent cookies later that night with the special butter. Oh were they ever good! Mmmmmm Mmmmmm!

The one thing they do is make you constantly crave water. I drank one glass of water after then next! The last time I checked, craving water is a good thing. While they also give you a body high which basically means you have no pain, you feel a little more flexible (could easily do my yoga stretches), and of course you laugh a little more and you feel good!

I made them with Oatmeal, flax, psyllium husks, quinoa flour, and splenda and even Splenda Brown sugar. I had a couple that night and had some interesting dreams. Nothing bad or anything, just more vivid than some (more details).

I also spoke with my chemo doctor and he advised that I continue on the chemo. I went to the pharmacy, picked up the chemo on Wednesday night. I always have something to tell each time I bring Miss Blue Belle with me there. I try to sit next to a person who looks like they will benefit most with Blue Belle's presence. She drew a small croud of people 2 couples, a woman with her child and of course a very shy 8 year old looking boy who sat right next to me and just stared in wonder at Blue Belle. I told him he could go ahead and pet her and he immediate got on the ground at her level and just looked into her eyes as she smiled back at him with her ears back. She got up close to his face and did a few licks which surprised him but he lost it and completely melted for a little while.

A couple I sat next to, the woman asked me about Blue Belle's service vest and I explained to her that I am going through some cancer treatments and that Blue Belle is helping me cope. The woman agreed tremendously that this little girl could make me cope much better. The woman then told me that she was there to get her pain meds and that she was addicted to them. She had started Oxycontin(sp) about 8 years ago and had tried to get off but it was too hard. She suffers from great pain from I forgot what she had said but it was something to suffer from greatly (not like what I suffer from) but her doctor has to give her something for pain and its just easier I guess to keep her from having seizures and such if she stops this particular medication.

To me I find this incredibly scary to be addicted to something like that. For this, I am so thankful that I utilize a very mild natural substance for pain. It wouldn't be a great deal for me to just stop taking something for pain. Sometimes I suffer and sometimes I do not. I can go days and days without taking something and then all of sudden if I do suffer, I can at least make it instant fast pain relief without constipation.